The Repentance of Believers
“Repent ye, and believe the gospel.”
Mark 1:15.
1. It is generally supposed, that repentance and faith are only
the gate of religion; that they are necessary only at the beginning of our
Christian course, when we are setting out in the way to the kingdom. And this
may seem to be confirmed by the great Apostle, where, exhorting the Hebrew
Christians to “go on to perfection,” he teaches them to leave these first
“principles of the doctrine of Christ;” “not laying again the foundation of
repentance from dead works, and of faith towards God;” which must at least mean,
that they should comparatively leave these, that at first took up all their
thoughts, in order to “press forward toward the prize of the high calling of God
in Christ Jesus.”
2. And this is undoubtedly true, that there is a repentance and a
faith, which are, more especially, necessary at the beginning: a repentance,
which is a conviction of our utter sinfulness, and guiltiness, and helplessness;
and which precedes our receiving that kingdom of God, which, our Lord observes,
is “within us;” and a faith, whereby we receive that kingdom, even
“righteousness, and peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost.”
3. But, notwithstanding this, there is also a repentance and a
faith (taking the words in another sense, a sense not quite the same, nor yet
entirely different) which are requisite after we have “believed the gospel;”
yea, and in every subsequent stage of our Christian course, or we cannot “run
the race which is set before us.” And this repentance and faith are full as
necessary, in order to our continuance and growth in grace, as the
former faith and repentance were, in order to our entering into the
kingdom of God.
But in what sense are we to repent and believe, after we are
justified? This is an important question, and worthy of being considered with
the utmost attention.
I. And, First, in what sense are we to repent?
1. Repentance frequently means an inward change, a change of mind
from sin to holiness. But we now speak of it in a quite different sense, as it
is one kind of self-knowledge, the knowing ourselves sinners, yea, guilty,
helpless sinners, even though we know we are children of God.
2. Indeed when we first know this; when we first find the
redemption in the blood of Jesus; when the love of God is first shed abroad in
our hearts, and his kingdom set up therein; it is natural to suppose that we are
no longer sinners, that all our sins are not only covered but destroyed. As we
do not then feel any evil in our hearts, we readily imagine none is there. Nay,
some well-meaning men have imagined this not only at that time, but ever after;
having persuaded themselves, that when they were justified, they were entirely
sanctified: yea, they have laid it down as a general rule, in spite of
Scripture, reason, and experience. These sincerely believe, and earnestly
maintain, that all sin is destroyed when we are justified; and that there is no
sin in the heart of a believer; but that it is altogether clean from that
moment. But though we readily acknowledge, “he that believeth is born of God,”
and “he that is born of God doth not commit sin;” yet we cannot allow that he
does not feel it from within: it does not reign, but it does
remain. And a conviction of the sin which remains in our heart, is one
great branch of the repentance we are now speaking of.
3. For it is seldom long before he who imagined all sin was gone,
feels there is still pride in his heart. He is convinced both that in
many respects he has thought of himself more highly than he ought to think, and
that he has taken to himself the praise of something he had received, and
gloried in it as though he had not received it; and yet he knows he is in the
favour of God. He cannot, and ought not to, “cast away his confidence.” “The
Spirit” still “witnesses with” his “spirit, that he is a child of God.”
4. Nor is it long before he feels self-will in his heart;
even a will contrary to the will of God. A will every man must inevitably have,
as long as he has an understanding. This is an essential part of human nature,
indeed of the nature of every intelligent being. Our blessed Lord himself had a
will as a man; otherwise he had not been a man. But his human will was
invariably subject to the will of his Father. At all times, and on all
occasions, even in the deepest affliction, he could say, “Not as I will, but as
thou wilt.” But this is not the case at all times, even with a true believer in
Christ. He frequently finds his will more or less exalting itself against the
will of God. He wills something, because it is pleasing to nature, which is not
pleasing to God; and he nills (is averse from) something, because it is painful
to nature, which is the will of God concerning him. Indeed, suppose he continues
in the faith, he fights against it with all his might: but this very thing
implies that it really exists, and that he is conscious of it.
5. Now self-will, as well as pride, is a species of
idolatry and both are directly contrary to the love of God. The same
observation may be made concerning the love of the world. But this
likewise even true believers are liable to feel in themselves; and every one of
them does feel it, more or less, sooner or later, in one branch or another. It
is true, when he first “passes from death unto life,” he desires nothing more
but God. He can truly say, “All my desire is unto Thee, and unto the remembrance
of Thy name:” “Whom have I in heaven but Thee? and there is none upon earth that
I desire beside Thee.” But it is not so always. In process of time he will feel
again, though perhaps only for a few moments, either “the desire of the flesh,”
or “the desire of the eye,” or “the pride of life.” Nay, if he does not
continually watch and pray, he may find lust reviving; yea, and thrusting
sore at him that he may fall, till he has scarce any strength left in him. He
may feel the assaults of inordinate affection; yea, a strong propensity
to “love the creature more than the Creator;” whether it be a child, a parent, a
husband, or wife, or “the friend that is as his own soul.” He may feel, in a
thousand various ways, a desire of earthly things or pleasures. In the same
proportion he will forget God, not seeking his happiness in him, and
consequently being a “lover of pleasure more than a lover of God.”
6. If he does not keep himself every moment, he will again feel
the desire of the eye; the desire of gratifying his imagination with
something great, or beautiful, or uncommon. In how many ways does this desire
assault the soul! Perhaps with regard to the poorest trifles, such as dress, or
furniture; things never designed to satisfy the appetite of an immortal spirit.
Yet, how natural is it for us, even after we have “tasted of the powers of the
world to come,” to sink again into these foolish, low desires of things that
perish in the using! How hard is it, even for those who know in whom they have
believed, to conquer but one branch of the desire of the eye, curiosity;
constantly to trample it under their feet; to desire nothing merely because it
is new!
7. And how hard is it even for the children of God wholly to
conquer the pride of life! St. John seems to mean by this nearly the same
with what the world terms “the sense of honour.” This is no other than a desire
of, and delight in, “the honour that cometh of men;” a desire and love of
praise; and, which is always joined with it, a proportionable fear of
dispraise. Nearly allied to this is evil shame; the being ashamed of
that wherein we ought to glory. And this is seldom divided from the fear of
man, which brings a thousand snares upon the soul. Now where is he, even
among those that seem strong in the faith, who does not find in himself a degree
of all these evil tempers? So that even these are but in part “crucified to the
world;” for the evil root still remains in their heart.
8. And do we not feel other tempers, which are as contrary to
the love of our neighbour as these are to the love of God? The love of our
neighbour “thinketh no evil.” Do not we find anything of the kind? Do we never
find any jealousies, any evil surmisings, any groundless or
unreasonable suspicions? He that is clear in these respects, let him cast the
first stone at his neighbour. Who does not sometimes feel other tempers or
inward motions, which he knows are contrary to brotherly love? If nothing of
malice, hatred, or bitterness, is there no touch of envy;
particularly toward those who enjoy some real or supposed good, which we desire,
but cannot attain? Do we never find any degree of resentment, when we are
injured or affronted; especially by those whom we peculiarly loved, and whom we
had most laboured to help or oblige? Does injustice or ingratitude never excite
in us any desire of revenge? any desire of returning evil for evil,
instead of “overcoming evil with good?” This also shows, how much is still in
our heart, which is contrary to the love of our neighbour.
9. Covetousness, in every kind and degree, is certainly
as contrary to this as to the love of God; whether, philargyri, the love of money, which is too
frequently the root of all evil; or pleonexia, literally, a desire of having more, or
increasing in substance. And how few, even of the real children of God, are
entirely free from both! Indeed one great man, Martin Luther, used to say, he
“never had any covetousness in him” (not only in his converted state, but) “ever
since he was born.” But, if so, I would not scruple to say, he was the only man
born of a woman (except him that was God as well as man,) who had not, who was
born without it. Nay, I believe, never was any one born of God, that lived any
considerable time after, who did not feel more or less of it many times,
especially in the latter sense. We may therefore set it down as an undoubted
truth, that covetousness, together with pride, and self-will, and anger, remain
in the hearts even of them that are justified.
10. It is their experiencing this, which has inclined so many
serious persons to understand the latter part of the seventh chapter to the
Romans, not of them that are “under the law,” that are convinced of sin, which
is undoubtedly the meaning of the Apostle, but of them that are “under grace;”
that are “justified freely through the redemption that is in Christ.” And it is
most certain, they are thus far right, — there does still remain, even in
them that are justified, a mind which is in some measure carnal
(so the Apostle tells even the believers at Corinth, “Ye are carnal;”) an
heart bent to backsliding, still ever ready to “depart from the living
God;” a propensity to pride, self-will, anger, revenge, love of the world, yea,
and all evil: a root of bitterness, which, if the restraint were taken off for a
moment, would instantly spring up; yea, such a depth of corruption, as, without
clear light from God, we cannot possibly conceive. And a conviction of all this
sin remaining in their hearts is the repentance which belongs to
them that are justified.
11. But we should likewise be convinced, that as sin remains in
our hearts, so it cleaves to all our words and actions. Indeed it is to
be feared, that many of our words are more than mixed with sin; that they are
sinful altogether; for such undoubtedly is all uncharitable conversation;
all which does not spring from brotherly love; all which does not agree with
that golden rule, “What ye would that others should do to you, even so do unto
them.” Of this kind is all backbiting, all tale-bearing, all whispering, all
evil-speaking, that is, repeating the faults of absent persons; for none would
have others repeat his faults when he is absent. Now how few are there, even
among believers, who are in no degree guilty of this; who steadily observe the
good old rule, “Of the dead and the absent, nothing but good!” And suppose they
do, do they likewise abstain from unprofitable conversation? Yet all this
is unquestionably sinful, and “grieves the Holy Spirit of God:” Yea, and “for
every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give an account in the day of
judgement.”
12. But let it be supposed, that they continually “watch and
pray,” and so do “not enter into” this “temptation;” that they constantly set a
watch before their mouth, and keep the door of their lips; suppose they exercise
themselves herein, that all their “conversation may be in grace, seasoned
with salt, and meet to minister grace to the hearers:” yet do they not daily
slide into useless discourse, notwithstanding all their caution? And even when
they endeavour to speak for God, are their words pure, free from unholy
mixtures? Do they find nothing wrong in their very intention? Do they
speak merely to please God, and not partly to please themselves? Is it wholly to
do the will of God, and not their own will also? Or, if they begin with a single
eye, do they go on “looking unto Jesus,” and talking with him all the time they
are talking with their neighbour? When they are reproving sin, do they feel no
anger or unkind temper to the sinner? When they are instructing the ignorant, do
they not find any pride, any self-preference? When they are comforting the
afflicted, or provoking one another to love and to good works, do they never
perceive any inward self-commendation: “Now you have spoken well?” Or any
vanity — a desire that others should think so, and esteem them on the account?
In some or all of these respects, how much sin cleaves to the best
conversation even of believers! The conviction of which is another branch
of the repentance which belongs to them that are justified.
13. And how much sin, if their conscience is thoroughly awake,
may they find cleaving to their actions also! Nay, are there not many of
these, which, though they are such as the world would not condemn, yet cannot be
commended, no, nor excused, if we judge by the Word of God? Are there not many
of their actions which, they themselves know, are not to the glory of God? many,
wherein they did not even aim at this; which were not undertaken with an eye to
God? And of those that were, are there not many, wherein their eye is not singly
fixed on God — wherein they are doing their own will, at least as much as his;
and seeking to please themselves as much, if not more, than to please God? — And
while they are endeavouring to do good to their neighbour, do they not feel
wrong tempers of various kinds? Hence their good actions, so called, are far
from being strictly such; being polluted with such a mixture of evil: such are
their works of mercy. And is there not the same mixture in their works of
piety? While they are hearing the word which is able to save their souls,
do they not frequently find such thoughts as make them afraid lest it should
turn to their condemnation, rather than their salvation? Is it not often the
same case, while they are endeavouring to offer up their prayers to God, whether
in public or private? Nay, while they are engaged in the most solemn service,
even while they are at the table of the Lord, what manner of thoughts arise in
them! Are not their hearts sometimes wandering to the ends of the earth;
sometimes filled with such imaginations, as make them fear lest all their
sacrifice should be an abomination to the Lord? So that they are now more
ashamed of their best duties, than they were once of their worst sins.
14. Again: How many sins of omission are they chargeable
with! We know the words of the Apostle: “To him that knoweth to do good, and
doeth it not, to him it is sin.” But do they not know a thousand instances,
wherein they might have done good, to enemies, to strangers, to their brethren,
either with regard to their bodies or their souls, and they did it not? How many
omissions have they been guilty of, in their duty toward God! How many
opportunities of communicating, of hearing his word, of public or private
prayer, have they neglected! So great reason had even that holy man, Archbishop
Usher, after all his labours for God, to cry out, almost with his dying breath,
“Lord, forgive me my sins of omission!”
15. But besides these outward omissions, may they not find in
themselves inward defects without number? defects of every kind: they
have not the love, the fear, the confidence they ought to have, toward God. They
have not the love which is due to their neighbour, to every child of man; no,
nor even that which is due to their brethren, to every child of God, whether
those that are at a distance from them, or those with whom they are immediately
connected. They have no holy temper in the degree they ought; they are defective
in everything, — in a deep consciousness of which they are ready to cry out,
with M. De Renty, “I am a ground all overrun with thorns;” or, with Job, “I am
vile: I abhor myself, and repent as in dust and ashes.”
16. A conviction of their guiltiness is another branch of
that repentance which belongs to the children of God. But this is cautiously to
be understood, and in a peculiar sense. For it is certain, “there is no
condemnation to them that are in Christ Jesus,” that believe in him, and, in the
power of that faith, “walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.” Yet can
they no more bear the strict justice of God now, than before they
believed. This pronounces them to be still worthy of death, on all the
preceding accounts. And it would absolutely condemn them thereto, were it not
for the atoning blood. Therefore they are thoroughly convinced, that they still
deserve punishment, although it is hereby turned aside from them. But
here there are extremes on one hand and on the other, and few steer clear of
them. Most men strike on one or the other, either thinking themselves condemned
when they are not, or thinking they deserve to be acquitted. Nay, the
truth lies between: they still deserve, strictly speaking only the
damnation of hell. But what they deserve does not come upon them, because they
“have an Advocate with the Father.” His life, and death, and intercession still
interpose between them and condemnation.
17. A conviction of their utter helplessness is yet
another branch of this repentance. I mean hereby two things: first, that they
are no more able now of themselves to think one good thought, to form one
good desire, to speak one good word, or do one good work, than before they were
justified; that they have still no kind or degree of strength of their
own; no power either to do good, or resist evil; no ability to conquer or
even withstand the world, the devil, or their own evil nature. They can, it is
certain, do all these things; but it is not by their own strength. They have
power to overcome all these enemies; for “sin hath no more dominion over them;”
but it is not from nature, either in whole or in part; it is the mere
gift of God: nor is it given all at once, as if they had a stock laid up for
many years; but from moment to moment.
18. By this helplessness I mean, Secondly, an absolute inability
to deliver ourselves from that guiltiness or desert of punishment whereof we are
still conscious; yea, and an inability to remove, by all the grace we have (to
say nothing of our natural powers,) either the pride, self-will, love of the
world, anger, and general proneness to depart from God, which we experimentally
know to remain in the heart, even of them that are regenerate; or the
evil which, in spite of all our endeavours, cleaves to all our words and
actions. Add to this, an utter inability wholly to avoid uncharitable, and, much
more, unprofitable, conversation: and an inability to avoid sins of omission, or
to supply the numberless defects we are convinced of; especially the want of
love, and other right tempers both to God and man.
19. If any man is not satisfied of this, if any believes that
whoever is justified is able to remove these sins out of his heart and life, let
him make the experiment. Let him try whether, by the grace he has already
received, he can expel pride, self-will, or inbred sin in general. Let him try
whether he can cleanse his words and actions from all mixture of evil; whether
he can avoid all uncharitable and unprofitable conversation, with all sins of
omission; and, lastly, whether he can supply the numberless defects which he
still finds in himself. Let him not be discouraged by one or two experiments,
but repeat the trial again and again; and the longer he tries, the more deeply
will he be convinced of his utter helplessness in all these respects.
20. Indeed this is so evident a truth, that well nigh all the
children of God, scattered abroad, however they differ in other points, yet
generally agree in this; — that although we may “by the Spirit, mortify the
deeds of the body,” resist and conquer both outward and inward sin: although we
may weaken our enemies day by day; — yet we cannot drive them out.
By all the grace which is given at justification we cannot extirpate them.
Though we watch and pray ever so much, we cannot wholly cleanse either our
hearts or hands. Most sure we cannot, till it shall please our Lord to speak to
our hearts again, to speak the second time, “Be clean:” and then only the
leprosy is cleansed. Then only, the evil root, the carnal mind, is destroyed;
and inbred sin subsists no more. But if there be no such second change, if there
be no instantaneous deliverance after justification, if there be none but
a gradual work of God (that there is a gradual work none denies,) then we must
be content, as well as we can, to remain full of sin till death; and, if so, we
must remain guilty till death, continually deserving punishment. For it
is impossible the guilt, or desert of punishment, should be removed from us, as
long as all this sin remains in our heart, and cleaves to our words and actions.
Nay, in rigorous justice, all we think, and speak, and act, continually
increases it.
II. 1. In this sense we are to repent, after we are
justified. And till we do so, we can go no farther. For, till we are sensible of
our disease, it admits of no cure. But, supposing we do thus repent, then are we
called to “believe the gospel.”
2. And this also is to be understood in a peculiar sense,
different from that wherein we believed in order to justification. Believe the
glad tidings of great salvation, which God hath prepared for all people. Believe
that he who is “the brightness of his Father’s glory, the express image of his
person,” is “able to save unto the uttermost all that come unto God through
him.” He is able to save you from all the sin that still remains in your heart.
He is able to save you from all the sin that cleaves to all your words and
actions. He is able to save you from sins of omission, and to supply whatever is
wanting in you. It is true, this is impossible with man; but with God-Man all
things are possible. For what can be too hard for him who hath “all power in
heaven and in earth?” Indeed, his bare power to do this is not a sufficient
foundation for our faith that he will do it, that he will thus exert his power,
unless he hath promised it. But this he has done: he has promised it over and
over, in the strongest terms. he has given us these “exceeding great and
precious promises,” both in the Old and the New Testament. So we read in the
law, in the most ancient part of the oracles of God, “The Lord thy God will
circumcise thy heart, and the heart of thy seed, to love the Lord thy God with
all thy heart, and with all thy soul.” (Deut.
30:6.) So in the Psalms, “He shall redeem Israel,” the Israel of God,
“from all his sins.” So in the Prophet, “Then will I sprinkle clean water upon
you, and ye shall be clean: from all your filthiness, and from all your idols,
will I cleanse you. And I will put My Spirit within you, and ye shall keep My
judgements, and do them. I will also save you from all your uncleannesses”
(Ezek. 36:25) So likewise in the New Testament,
“Blessed be the Lord God of Israel; for he hath visited and redeemed his people,
and hath raised up an horn of salvation for us, — to perform the oath which he
sware to our father Abraham, that he would grant unto us, that we being
delivered out of the hands of our enemies should serve him without fear, in
holiness and righteousness before him, all the days of our life” (Luke 1:68)
3. You have therefore good reason to believe, he is not only
able, but willing to do this; to cleanse you from all your filthiness of flesh
and spirit; to “save you from all your uncleannesses.” This is the thing which
you now long for; this is the faith which you now particularly need, namely,
that the Great Physician, the Lover of my soul, is willing to make me clean. But
is he willing to do this to-morrow, or to-day? Let him answer for himself:
“To-day, if ye will hear” My “voice, harden not your hearts.” If you put it off
till to-morrow, you harden your hearts; you refuse to hear his voice. Believe,
therefore, that he is willing to save you to-day. He is willing to save
you now. “Behold, now is the accepted time.” He now saith, “Be thou
clean!” Only believe, and you also will immediately find, “all things are
possible to him that believeth.”
4. Continue to believe in him that loved thee, and gave himself
for thee; that bore all thy sins in his own body on the tree; and he saveth thee
from all condemnation, by his blood continually applied. Thus it is that we
continue in a justified state. And when we go “from faith to faith, when we have
faith to be cleansed from indwelling sin, to be saved from all our
uncleannesses, we are likewise saved from all that guilt, that
desert of punishment, which we felt before. So that then we may say, not
only,
Every moment, Lord, I want The merit of thy
death;
but, likewise, in the full assurance of faith,
Every moment,
Lord, I have The merit of thy death!
For, by that faith in his life, death, and intercession for us,
renewed from moment to moment, we are every whit clean, and there is not only
now no condemnation for us, but no such desert of punishment as was before, the
Lord cleansing both our hearts and lives.
5. By the same faith we feel the power of Christ every moment
resting upon us, whereby alone we are what we are; whereby we are enabled to
continue in spiritual life, and without which, notwithstanding all our present
holiness, we should be devils the next moment. But as long as we retain our
faith in him, we “draw water out of the wells of salvation.” Leaning on our
Beloved, even Christ in us the hope of glory, who dwelleth in our hearts by
faith, who likewise is ever interceding for us at the right hand of God, we
receive help from him, to think, and speak, and act, what is acceptable in his
sight. Thus does he “prevent” them that believe in all their “doings, and
further them with his continual help;” so that all their designs, conversations,
and actions are “begun, continued, and ended in him.” Thus doth he “cleanse the
thoughts of their hearts, by the inspiration of his Holy Spirit, that they may
perfectly love him, and worthily magnify his holy name.”
6. Thus it is, that in the children of God, repentance and faith
exactly answer each other. By repentance we feel the sin remaining in our
hearts, and cleaving to our words and actions: by faith, we receive the power of
God in Christ, purifying our hearts, and cleansing our hands. By repentance, we
are still sensible that we deserve punishment for all our tempers, and words,
and actions: by faith, we are conscious that our Advocate with the Father is
continually pleading for us, and thereby continually turning aside all
condemnation and punishment from us. By repentance we have an abiding conviction
that there is no help in us: by faith we receive not only mercy, “but grace to
help in” every “time of need. Repentance disclaims the very possibility
of any other help; faith accepts all the help we stand in need of, from him that
hath all power in heaven and earth. Repentance says, “Without him I can do
nothing:” Faith says, “I can do all things through Christ strengthening me.”
Through him I can not only overcome, but expel, all the enemies of my soul.
Through him I can “love the Lord my God with all my heart, mind, soul, and
strength;” yea, and “walk in holiness and righteousness before him all the days
of my life.”
III. 1. From what has been said we may easily learn the
mischievousness of that opinion, — that we are wholly sanctified when we
are justified; that our hearts are then cleansed from all sin. It is true, we
are then delivered, as was observed before, from the dominion of outward sin;
and, at the same time, the power of inward sin is so broken, that we need no
longer follow, or be led by it: but it is by no means true, that inward sin is
then totally destroyed; that the root of pride, self-will, anger, love of the
world, is then taken out of the heart; or that the carnal mind, and the heart
bent to backsliding, are entirely extirpated. And to suppose the contrary is
not, as some may think, an innocent harmless mistake. No: it does immense harm:
it entirely blocks up the way to any farther change; for it is manifest, “they
that are whole not need a physician, but they that are sick.” If, therefore, we
think we are quite made whole already, there is no room to seek any further
healing. On this supposition it is absurd to expect a farther deliverance from
sin, whether gradual or instantaneous.
2. On the contrary, a deep conviction that we are not yet whole;
that our hearts are not fully purified; that there is yet in us a “carnal mind,”
which is still in its nature “enmity against God;” that a whole body of sin
remains in our heart, weakened indeed, but not destroyed; shows, beyond all
possibility of doubt, the absolute necessity of a farther change. We allow, that
at the very moment of justification, we are born again: In that instant
we experience that inward change from “darkness into marvellous light;” from the
image of the brute and the devil, into the image of God; from the earthly,
sensual, devilish mind, to the mind which was in Christ Jesus. But are we then
entirely changed? Are we wholly transformed into the image of him
that created us? Far from it: we still retain a depth of sin; and it is the
consciousness of this which constrains us to groan, for a full deliverance, to
him that is mighty to save. Hence it is, that those believers who are not
convinced of the deep corruption of their hearts, or but slightly, and, as it
were, notionally convinced, have little concern about entire
sanctification. They may possibly hold the opinion, that such a thing is to
be, either at death, or some time they know not when, before it. But they have
no great uneasiness for the want of it, and no great hunger or thirst after it.
They cannot, until they know themselves better, until they repent in the sense
above described, until God unveils the inbred monster’s face, and shows them the
real state of their souls. Then only, when they feel the burden, will they groan
for deliverance from it. Then, and not till then, will they cry out, in the
agony of their soul,
Break off the yoke of inbred sin, And fully set my
spirit free! I
cannot rest till pure within, Till I am wholly lost in Thee.
3. We may learn from hence, secondly, that a deep conviction of
our demerit, after we are accepted (which in one sense may be termed
guilt,) is absolutely necessary, in order to our seeing the true value of
the atoning blood; in order to our feeling that we need this as much, after we
are justified as ever we did before. Without this conviction, we cannot but
account the blood of the covenant as a common thing, something of which
we have not now any great need, seeing all our past sins are blotted out. Yea,
but if both our hearts and lives are thus unclean, there is a kind of guilt
which we are contracting every moment, and which, of consequence, would every
moment expose us to fresh condemnation, but that
He ever lives
above, For us
to intercede, — His all-atoning love,
His precious blood, to plead.
It is this repentance, and the faith intimately connected with
it, which are expressed in those strong lines, —
I sin in every
breath I draw, Nor do Thy will, nor keep Thy law On earth, as angels
do above: But
still the fountain open stands, Washes my feet, my heart, my hands, Till I am perfected
in love.
4. We may observe, Thirdly, a deep conviction of our utter
helplessness, of our total inability to retain anything we have received,
much more to deliver ourselves from the world of iniquity remaining both in our
hearts and lives, teaches us truly to live upon Christ by faith, not only as our
Priest, but as our King. Hereby we are brought to “magnify him,” indeed; to
“give Him all the glory of his grace;” to “make him a whole Christ, an entire
Saviour; and truly to set the crown upon his head.” These excellent words, as
they have frequently been used, have little or no meaning; but they are
fulfilled in a strong and deep sense, when we thus, as it were, go out of
ourselves, in order to be swallowed up in him; when we sink into nothing, that
he may be all in all. Then, his almighty grace having abolished “every high
thing which exalted itself against him,” every temper, and thought, and word,
and work “is brought to the obedience of Christ.”
Londonderry, April 24, 1767